You Found Me (Redux)
I recently rediscovered an old post from over ten years ago. You Found Me was a post I wrote during a rough time in my life, only about a year and 5 months after I had broken up with Kele (aka Kara). I was married at the time and Kara was essentially my first 'Polyamorous' relationship. Meanwhile my wife Nightbird had a girlfriend she saw off and on.
Looking back at it, Kara was also essentially my first experience with a natural and true submissive. Kara and I met in World of Warcraft (in 2007) of all places, funnily enough. She was one of my officers.
I recall one evening adventuring with her out into Horde territory. We were on a remote beach, and she stopped responding. She had fallen asleep! But she was still logged in. I stayed with her and roleplayed that I was protecting her as she slept. Until her character finally timed out. I screenshotted the event and emailed it to her for a chuckle. I honestly didn't think anything else would come of it - I was just protecting her. But she found that act so sweet... I had earned her utmost respect.
The almost year long romance following that ended up being fairly passionate, but hardly as passionate as some of my more recent adventures. So, in the original post, me wishing I would find that sort of connection again... Well I did.
I broke things off with Kara because - as ironic as this was, Kara had a boyfriend who she was sneaking around on, and seeing me on the side. I won't get into the specifics, but I will say that there was some pressure from my wife in regards to being concerned about how she wasn't quite being honest with her partner (where as being polyamorous, we were). The night I broke it off with Kara, she ended up breaking things off with her boyfriend. It ended up being very shitty, and I felt bad. I knew Kara loved me a lot. The technical aspects of that situation would of been difficult to navigate however. I did like Kara a lot, and I do hope she is doing well now - it has been many many years since I have heard from her.
In a way, I seem to somehow be very attractive to women who are already with a man, so I suppose I had just settled upon that fact. Single girls? nah.. they overlook me all the time! lol I really don't get it.
Currently my relationship with 'Whisperin' is growing and has a similar theme. But this time, I am fully single, and there seems to be a motivation for her to move on with her life, and perhaps devote herself fully to Team Roadwolf. I am hopeful, and we shall see how further courting experiences go. :)
In any case, the post also recalls the relationship Nightbird and I had as being very strong. It was a solid relationship, tho even as I wrote the original post, cracks were beginning to form. I still respect Nightbird a lot, and I know I was a pain in the butt sometimes. She put up with me, and indeed she slowly helped coax me to grow and adapt. But the intimacy faded over time, and we ended up just being friends or roommates. No real fanfare, or commotion. Just faded out. It was sad. But we were both going off on our own adventures in life.
These days I have matured quite a bit. I am now fully independent. I am confident in who I am. I am confident in what I want in life. And I am not afraid of the small things. And I want to adventure. I think she would be maybe a little proud of me now.
I want to build a new life with my new partner. With someone who is on Team Roadwolf. With someone who I hope I will be with forever until the end of time as I know it.
Of course, we can only hope and dream.
The next chapter, is on the doorstep and awaiting it's moment to shine. And I do hope this chapter will see me through to the end.